frickin boys

WHY oh WHY do you have to confuse me out the kahooze?

ok, alright, alright, ok

I am having the shittiest day I've had for a long time. I guess it might just be because of the rain. I'm feeling really down today and wishing it would seem like half of my friends don't use me because I'm a nice village student. I've got zero desire to do anything. I'm really mad that I didn't keep sending my stuff to Alaska Pacific, because I really don't want to be with any of these people next year. I feel strange and unwanted. I feel like I'd rather be in a room by myself than have to deal with people, because they're really getting on my nerves. Like when people ask questions that really put other people on the spot, that's annoying, rude, and unfair. I just want all the other stuff to fall into place, but it's not really working out. I just want people to maybe be nice for once and make me feel like maybe I'm here for more than just some coffee or a night away from school.